Emerging from the hiatus

•February 5, 2016 • Leave a Comment

I had some sort of hiatus last year due to the things that happened in  my life, work-wise. But it doesn’t mean that things got stagnant. Will be rebooting this site again (as well as my other sites) really soon. Pramis!

In the meantime, you can still read my latest articles at the Philippine Online Chronicles’ Pinoy LGBT channel. I also started a creative nonfiction space to test this new medium called Medium so feel free to browse that as well. Keribels?

K BRB!

For the POC: Religion, race and media this May

•June 11, 2015 • 1 Comment

It was a busy May for me (still busy this month!) but I was able to submit at least three of my usual four articles for the Philippine Online Chronicles. And so far, I think that month produced the most controversial comment exchanges ever in my history of writing for the POC.🙂 So thanks for the traffic, you gals.

Anyway I wrote two analysis articles about the latest teleserye of my previous employer GMA-7 because it’s lesbian-themed. Have fun reading the comments in the first one.

Here they are:

#TRMDAnalysis: Top 10 things tungkol sa tomboy the TRMD way, daw – Making my initial critique light and satirical, I decided to do a countdown thing. But I guess some people missed the memo on intelligent writing.

Hmm hard to choose an excerpt to write here since it’s a countdown. So instead, read the whole article na lang by clicking on the title.

#TRMDAnalysis: #longoverdue vis-a-vis #queerdivide – The second article about the show is a thoughtful reflection on the two sides of reactions I’ve been getting/hearing from the community. It’s actually a bit polarized. So I reflect on that.

Religion and Relevance: The Irish vote and the Pinoy non-pride – May 2015 was very interesting because of how Ireland became that Catholic country which voted to support queer marriage. Again, I muse and ponder about that monumental event.

For the POC: Let’s talk about sex, lezzies!

•May 3, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Because it’s soooo hot in Metro Manila this April, I decided to add on to that hotness with a few hot topics of my own, as part of my monthly writing contributions for the Philippine Online Chronicles’ Pinoy LGBT section.

There are so many sex-related issues that the queer community still needs to tackle and discuss. This is why I thought of writing about them a bit here. Sad to say, I just skimmed the top of the topic here, as there are still lots to ponder on about issues of queer sex. There was one particularly glaring anecdote I got from a transman during a recent Baguio trip, and I think I’ll be expanding that na lang for the June pride month series I’m thinking. Quite controversial, actually, that’s why I’m letting it percolate first this May so it’ll be ripe by June.

In the meantime, enjoy the sex stuff! Click on the titles to read the whole article.

Let’s talk about sex, lezzie: After the love este sex is gone, anuneh?

Mostly an article about women in long-term relationships whose sizzle in the bed somewhat dissipated already. Of course, been there done that! Also about some of my friends and people I know. It’s quite sad that this is a common thing, what they call LBD or lesbian bed death in America. An excerpt:

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Dahil isa akong sex-positive feminist, mahalaga sa akin ang sexual expression, dahil healthy ito para sa ating human beings. Pero tulad ng pagsasawalangbahala ng ating lipunan sa mental health, ang sexual health din natin ay dinededma rin kadalasan. Dahil nga sa konserbatibo ang turing ng ilan sa ating lipunan, patago pa rin kadalasan ang pag-uusap tungkol sa sex at sexual needs ng mag-partner, o ng isang tao. Hindi dapat ganun.

Kung ako ang sasagot sa tanong ko, ito ang reply: no. As in no, I will not stay in a sexless relationship.

Let’s talk about sex, lezzie: Wranger sex a.k.a. anatomy anonymity

This is about an ex of mine who introduced the term “wrangler” to me as that’s how they call super-stone butch lesbians in their province. Sadly, these wranglers don’t know much about proper lovemaking with women, as she told me. An excerpt:

sex-series-2_-3-120x300Nadaan sa malas itong ex kong ito na may wrangler na ex, dahil hindi pala alam ng mga wrangler na nakaulayaw niya kung paano magpaligaya ng babae. Nang minsang sinamahan ko siya sa ob-gyne para magpa-check-up, nakita ng doktor na maraming gasgas ang vaginal canal ng ex ko. Ito pala ang dahilan ng kanyang pabalik-balik na infection sa area na ito. Ang dahilan nito ay ang walang pakundangang pagsundot sa kanya ng wrangler niyang ex, na pinapasok-labas-pasok lang ang mga daliri nito na hindi na pinapansin kung natutuyuan na ang ka-sex niya o basa pa rin. At dahil walang pakundangan ang pagsundot niya, nagkaroon ng friction at nasasaktan na pala niya ang ex ko. Pero dahil sa hindi pa rin maalam sa lesbian sex ang ex kong ito noong panahong iyon, inakala na lang niyang ito ang tama at kasama sa sex ang nasasaktan.

Let’s talk about sex, lezzie: Kapa niyo ba ang isa’t isa? (Part 1 of 2)

This was supposed to be one article but during the course of writing it, there are so many issues the popped out so I had to split it into two for proper discourse latag. Patok naman hehehe. It’s basically a 6-point tip/suggestion thingie on helping women analyze if they indeed have the bodies of their partners — and their own — mapped out, for pleasure. An excerpt of the points:

sex-series-3A_4Point number 1: Walang default template ang lesbian sex, mga teh

Walang clear-cut procedure ang woman-to-woman sex, mga ateh. Hindi ito parang sa porn na may Step 1 magtitigan at maghalikan; Step 2 maghubad; Step 3 maghawakan ng body parts; Step 4 give each other head; Step 5 penetrate to the max until climax!

Point number 2: Siguraduhing makukuha mo ang complete attention ng ka-sex mo

NKKLK ito pero may ganito palang kaso sa totoong buhay: na habang tinatrabaho ng isang partner sa baba ang jowa niya, ang jowa ay busy pala sa pagkalikot ng cellphone niya! Ibig sabihin, wala sa present moment ang hitad. Aba, nasaan siya?

Point number 3: Alamin angpatok na paraan para mapa-come ang partner mo

Sigurado ba kayong kapa niyo na ang isa’t isa? May lesbiyana kasing nagreklamo na hindi siya mapa-come ng girlfriend niya, at ang ending ay napapagod ang jowa niya dahil sa tagal ng pagtatrabaho ay walang ganansiya sa dulo.

Let’s talk about sex, lezzie: Kapa niyo ba ang isa’t isa (part 2 of 2)

So we continue:

sex-series-3B_1Point number 4: Pag-usapan ninyo ang kalakarang sex ninyo

Wala nang tatalo pa sa pag-uusap. Para sa ibang couples, sa conversations nagsisimula ang eroticism ng kanilang foreplay. Kung talagang bukas kayo sa isa’t isa, dapat ay napapag-usapan din ninyo ang inyong likes and dislikes hindi lang sa types of music/movies/books etc. kundi pati na rin sa sex and sexual practices/activities.

Point number 5: Tigilan na ang panonood ng porn para gayahin ito

May silbi naman ang porn sa buhay. Puwede itong props sa inyong sexual relationship bilang pasakalye or appetizer o anuman ang nais ninyo. Pero para gawin niyo itong template ng sexual acts ninyong mag-partner, ibang usapan naman iyon.

Point number 6: Huwag matakot mag-discover ng bagong sexual activity 

May mga mag-jowa diyan na nagsisimulang mainit at mapusok ang sex nila noong bago pa lang sila. Pero pagkaraan ng ilang buwan o taon, nawawala na ang init na ito at suwerte na lang kung maambunan paminsan-minsan ang tigang nilang estado.

Let’s talk about sex, lezzie: Sex-positive vs. sex-negative

I was also surprised to discover just how sex-negative some queer women are. And I try to trace that negativity as to where it could have come from. An excerpt:

sex4_-3-177x300Dapat yatang mai-characterize muna kung ano bang uri ng society ang meron tayo. Una, pinapa-guilty tayong lahat ng ating pagiging Katoliko kaya ang sex ay tinitingnan lang natin bilang pang-go forth and multiply at hindi pang-happy happy joy joy na gawain. Bawal ang premarital o non-marital sex at kailangan kang mangumpisal sa pari kapag nakagawa ka nito. Ang sex ay, ideally, ginaganap lang kapag kasal ka na kaya lahat ng uri ng sex sa labas ng basbas ng Katolikong Diyos ay hindi kaaya-aya sa lipunang ito. Kaya malaking eskandalo kapag ang isang babae ay nabuntis out of wedlock at kailangang panagutan ng lalaking nakabuntis ang kanyang ginawa sa pamamagitan ng kasal at kasal lamang.

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Ano, nag-iinit na ba kayo? Choz. Gorabels lang mga beks. Para di laging ulo ang mainit…iba naman ang painitin. Happy reading!

Academic journals or bust!

•April 15, 2015 • Leave a Comment

Is it still worth it to get published in an academic journal?

I was enjoying my late afternoon coffee while fixing my computer files earlier when I chanced upon this opinion piece on Singapore’s The Strait Times which discusses why the academe needs a major paradigm shift in putting knowledge out there.

Aptly titled “Prof, no one is reading you,” that thought is actually my own thought ever since I became an academic and was forced to churn out those academic articles for academic journals in order to gain some academic traction in my former academic career.

Some papers I created to be presented first in various local and academic conferences, and they have gathered interesting reactions from the people who listened to our panels. The Q&A that comes after such paper presentations were very important to me, the academic paper writer, because I get to listen to feedback from the audience and they also weigh in on the facts, theories and thoughts I presented in my own paper.

One particularly memorable moment I had was about a paper I wrote about how lesbians were being misrepresented in early independent digital full-length films. This paper got accepted in a graduate studies conference in New York, so of course I was ecstatic because I got a free trip to NYC courtesy of the university’s travel fund grant for paper presentations plus I got to hear and interact with fellow film school and cinema studies people in that conference. I traveled with two other young co-faculty in the UP Film Institute who presented similarly-themed papers. The people who listened to our paper presentations were actually in awe that such “things” were happening na pala in Asia, and in the Philippines at that, meaning having a very active independent film movement here, filmmakers doing digital films and presenting queer issues in their stories.

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Siyempre feel na feel lang ng lola mo ang pagiging New Yorker sa pagtawid sa Fifth Avenue in Manhattan where I presented my paper. [March 2010 New York City]

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Happy to be part of this small but significant graduate studies conference full of cinema geeks like me. [March 2010 CUNY NYC]

Another good discussion I had was when I presented in Jakarta this paper I wrote about how Filipino queer women are building their identities in Twitter. The Ateneo-like school that hosted the international conference on media and globalization chenerz was very interested in the openness of queer culture online here in the Philippines, and my fellow attendees were also interested in knowing more about the media situation here in the Philippines since they’ve been having difficulties there in Indonesia and in other parts of Asia. Again, the discourse that stemmed from my paper presentation was very engaging and it was fulfilling for me as a writer and also an academic researching on queer life in the Philippines.

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This was one of the happier conferences I attended, ‘yung tipong gusto mong makinig sa mga interesting paper presentations ng ibang tao. Plus hanging out with the young faculty of UPH was also a hoot! [February 2013 Tangerang, Indonesia]

Now my beef with academic papers is that the academe insists on publishing them in peer-reviewed journals to gain some legitimacy in the academia. But having these journals accessed is another thing. Not everyone reads these journals, let alone being aware of their existence as that Straits op-ed wrote. Sure, students and researchers read them, but wouldn’t it be great to make them available for a wider audience outside of the academe so that we academics could share our knowledge to a wider world? We’re always publishing for our own peers and for people who study things, but aren’t studies supposed to educate more people than this?

Another beef I have with these journals is that their writing style is so high up there that many people who may want to read these articles or papers could get alienated by the heavy academic jargon that is required in these papers. I mean, I myself retch at some academic papers I read in journals because I know they’re just dropping jargon after jargon as a requirement, not as an enhancement to their papers or their thoughts, if ever they had any original ones in the first place.

Like I had this academic friend-colleague who presented a paper in a Hong Kong international conference that I also attended to present a paper, and after another colleague of mine presented her jargon-heavy paper, I turned to my friend-colleague and asked her opinion about it, and she said “Hindi siya nagbabasa masyado, ‘no?” meaning my other colleague just lifted thought after thought from her academic resources and peppered them with jargon after jargon to cook up her paper. I laughed and said “Yeah, siya lang ang nakakaintindi ng paper niya hahaha!” I think it defeats the purpose of writing to share knowledge when the manner of presenting that knowledge is not clear to people you want to educate.

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Tipa-tipa lola mo as I coffice to polish my paper presentation. [March 2012 Starbucks Nathan Road HK]

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Getting ready for my close-up in this conference. [March 2012 HK University]

But I think my main beef about academic writing is that these so-called peers who will review you require you to cite earlier scholars who may have written about an original thought you presented in your paper. It’s like you’re not allowed to write your original thoughts and they think you merely lifted that thought from another source, so they push you or force you even to “Cite your sources!” Okay, granted that we get influenced by what we read but it’s ridiculous to think that we don’t own a single original idea or thought in our heads. And worse, we are required to support our original idea with similar ideas that have been previously published before. Whatever happened to “producing new knowledge” people? I give up.

I’ve always been a writer and I’ve tried many types of writing styles and genres, but admittedly, academic writing is one of my most hated style of writing. I guess this comes from the fact that I’ve always written for popular media as the op-ed suggests academics do, to reach a wider audience and to educate more people. It’s not to say that academics should “lower” their standards in order to have mass appeal. But seriously, who are we educating ba kasi in the first place when we write above the capacity of readers? I mean, even our own students sometimes don’t comprehend much the jargon-heavy papers academics write. What’s the right way to educate?

For me, it’s just simple: be understandable enough to educate more people. I know my professor-colleagues might frown upon this, as they insist on writing using that “higher” level because they want people to step up to reach that level. No harm in that, but also, there’s no humility in that as well. If we insist on being “higher” than the rest of them “lower” folks, what kind of hierarchy are we imposing on knowledge ba?

Ewan ko sa kanila, but I went into teaching with a combined theory+praxis approach to imparting knowledge. That there should be some effort to have the theoretical stuff applied to the practical side of things in life. More importantly,I believe that people should learn new knowledge so they could also use/teach/transfer/share that knowledge to others, so dadami na tayong knowledgeable, di ba dapat? But the thing here is, some academicians just want to be the ones who are on top of that knowledge hierarchy. The so-called ivory tower, doon nila gustong magka-tenure. And it starts with keeping the upper hand of knowledge to themselves. Yes, believe me, there are teachers out there who don’t want to really share their knowledge, and this makes me really sad. Oh well, kanya-kanyang trip na lang siguro ‘yan, kahit sa akademya.

This muni-muni was also so timely since yesterday, I was contemplating on putting my stuff online so that researchers or students could have access to my papers. Now that I’ve ended my 8-year teaching stint, there are still students who ask me to be a resource person on topics that I’ve written about before. I was toying with the idea of polishing my unpublished academic papers yesterday, but I think it’s better for me if I release those papers here in social media where more people could use them. Dedma na sa plagiarists. Karma is always on my side and I believe karma will give these credit-grabbers a swift kick in the butt naman if ever they plagiarize me. I know a bigger percentage of people out there will benefit naman from my materials so I’m cool with that.

So I’m going to create a separate page within this blog where I will post my academic papers, published and unpublished. It’s also a way of archiving my material na rin. Sige abangan na lang iyan soon.

Be well, folks.

For the POC: Sapphic “stepfatherhood” series

•April 3, 2015 • Leave a Comment

If you’re a queer lesbian feminist and you find yourself partnering with a woman who’s openly out with her sexuality, so open that even her own kids have no problem with same-sex relationships in their household, but integrating gender roles within this set-up happens, what will you do?

I created a series for last March’s Phil. Online Chronicle’s Pinoy LGBT channel to raise a few questions about this new-found “identity” I seem to be adopting/adapting to: sapphic “stepfatherhood” daw teh! Stepfather, because for lack of a better term to make sense of same-sex partnerships, kids still see gender binaries applied to same-gender couples. How do we engender kids who are growing up with such limitations imposed upon by society?

Here are my queries about these topics. Click the titles to read the whole article.

Ang nanay kong tatay raw (part 1 of 4): Introductory adventures into sapphic “stepfatherhood”

Ang unang role: halaw sa pelikulang Ang Tatay Kong Nanay. Ako naman pala ang magiging Nanay Na Tatay Daw. Kaloka. ‘Musta naman ang mok-ap sa ganitong pagtatanghal teh? O siya, bahala na si Batman…at si Sappho.

Isang araw na sinamahan ko ang aking sweetheart sa eskuwelahan ng kanyang panganay, nagulat na lang kaming pareho nang ipinakilala kami ni Panganay sa kanyang mga kaibigan, lalo na sa mga guro. Na ang pagpapakilala sa nanay niya ay nanay niya, siyempre, at saka kilala na naman siya doon dahil matagal na sa eskuwelahang iyon si Panganay. Pero laking tumbling na may flip ang peg ng lola mo nang ako na ang ipakilala niya, dahil ang pagpapakilala niya sa akin sa homeroom teacher niya ay “My Stepfather.”

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Ang nanay kong tatay raw (part 2 of 4): ‘Di uso ang kloseta sa pamilya

Noong una, di namin alam kung paano nga ba namin ipapakilala ang sarili namin bilang kami sa mga maliliit na nilalang na ito. Akala namin, kailangan naming gumanap ng roles na pamilyar muna sa mga bagets (i.e. si Mommy at si “friend ni Mommy” na si Tita__), at saka namin ipapakilala ang mga bago naming roles (i.e. si Mommy at ang love niyang si Tita__). Pero sa paglaon,

nagulat kami dahil ang mga bagets na mismo ang bumuwag sa mga roles na una naming hinahanda, dahil handa na naman pala sila sa ganitong mga roles ng buhay.

Minsan, simple lang talaga ang eksena sa mga bata. Basta naipakikita mo nang tama at wasto ang iyong sarili, wala naman din silang dadalhing paghuhusga sa sarili mo. Kaya lang, kahit gaano naman kabukas ang mga bata, kung mananatiling sarado ang isipan ng nakakatanda sa kanila, wala rin namang mangyayari at magaganap sa eksena nila, anuman ang eksena na iyon.

Ang nanay kong tatay raw (part 3 of 4): Gender binary vs. stock knowledge

Kahit sa mga nakatatanda, mahirap talagang ipaintindi kung ano ang tunay na identidad ng isang nilalang. Ako po ay babae at mahal ko ang pagiging babae ko, pero ayoko pong malimitahan ang pananamit ko at hitsura ko sa kung ano lamang ang itinakda ng lipunan na pananamit at hitsura ng babae o lalaki. Plus sa laki ng balakang ko teh, wala kasing komportableng sakto sa size ko sa women’s wear kasi sa department store haller! True story, but I digress.

Kaya pagdating sa pagpapaintindi sa mga bagets na nasaksakan na ng stock knowledge na ito ng gender binaries, paano mo masasabi sa kanila na hindi applicable sa lahat ang mga una nilang natututunan sa buhay? Bilang mas nakatatanda, paano nga ba natin bubuwagin ang isang konseptong kabuwag-buwag na, pero nagsisimula pa lang itong buuin sa isipan at pagkatao ng mga kabataan?

Your guess is as good as mine, teh.

Ang nanay kong tatay raw (part 4 of 4): Gender Roles ‘R’ Us nga ba?

Napaisip tuloy ako: ang gender binary biases ba ay galing mismo sa atin sa LGBTQ community na siya dapat ang unang kumu-kuwestiyon dito? At naipapasa ba natin itong biases na ito sa ibang tao, o niyayakap lang din natin ang biases ng iba at ina-apply sa komunidad natin? Hm, esep-esep teh.

May kanya-kanya tayo ng dahilan kung bakit itinatago natin sa mga mas sikat at kilalang gender roles ang ilang tauhan natin sa buhay. Sa aming pag-iimbestiga dati, nalaman ng sweetheart ko na ang koya bagets palang junakis niya ay protective lang sa kanilang pamilya dahil sa issue ng bullying.

Dahil sa alam niyang kinukutya ang mga kakaiba sa lipunang ito, lalo na ang mga bakla at tomboy, minabuti na ni koya na itago na lang ang tunay na estado ng pamilya nila noon, pati ngayon — na ang kanyang tinaguriang “stepdad” ay isang tomboy pala. Totoong alam sa eskuwelahan nila na single mom ang nanay niya, pero nang makita dati ng mga kaklase na may kasamang butch-bordering-on-transman ang nanay, agad nilang tinanong ang bagets kung tomboy daw ang butch at kung tomboy daw ang mommy niya as a result.

For the POC: February feelingera series

•March 16, 2015 • Leave a Comment

I love how the Filipino language can take an English word and make it our own, so to speak. Like the word “feeling” which means one has the ability to feel something, right? But if you immerse this in bekinese, or bekimon, or queer lingo (whatever you term it) and pertain to people who feel like they’re the absolute shitz or something, then you get the word “feelingera” or “feelingero” for guys.

For my Philippine Online Chronicles (POC) Pinoy LGBT channel series last February, I thought of making up a couple of articles about different types of feelingeras I know or have encountered in my life. But it was such a surprise to get feedback from my fellow lezzies to write about other types of feelingeras they encountered. At sabi nga ni Madam Celine D, it’s all coming back, coming back to me now…char! That there are indeed many other types of feelingeras out there, more than what I intended to write about hehe.

So here’s the final rundown, with a few excerpts. Click the titles to read the whole articles:

February Feelingera 1: Nakidalamhati ka lang, type na agad?

Feelingera numero uno: ‘Yung brokenhearted siya kaya dinadamayan mo sa dalamhati, pero babaligtarin ka at feeling niya ay type mo siya. Daw. Etchoserang frog!

But lo and behold, hindi pala simpleng pa-inosente ang peg ni Feelingera. Dahil nga feelingera siya, may moments pala na ang mga inosenteng information, chikahan, galaw at pagsasama ay nilalagyan niya ng kulay – para pagselosin ulit ang kanyang ex na Tisay Butchie na parang gusto pa rin niyang mapasakanya kahit na may ka-date na itong iba sa kasalukuyang iyon. At isa sa mga ginamit pala niyang impormasyong pampaselos ay ang isang inosenteng invite ko sa kanya isang beses.

February Feelingera 2: Si pa-victim mode na sablay

Feelingera numero dos: Ang babaeng akala niya ay type siya ng lahat ng babae. No matter what. WHAT!?! Etchosera fatale ka neng!

Mula pa noong nakilala ko itong neneng ito ay tipikal siyang pa-girl na parang smart aleck ang peg pero may dash of innocence and charm. In short, she’s like one of those who stepped out of a page of a teen magazine or something, Miss Cosmo Juniora and whatnot. Marahil ay na-realize niyang sampu sampera nga ang uri niya kaya gumawa siya ng niche para maging angat nang kaunti sa iba. Pero laking gulat na lang naming magkakaibigang biyaning dahil ang peg pala niya para maiba ay ang mai-frame ang sarili bilang crush ng bayan, or at least ng aming maliit na bayan ng mga biyaning. In short, pinagkakalat pala niya sa aming lezzieverse, sa magkakahiwalay na pagkakataon, na ang bawa’t isa sa amin ay may crush sa kanya.

February Feelingera 3: Nadantay lang, type ka na agad?

Feelingera Numero Tres: Ang lesbiyanang nadikit lang ang balat mo sa balat niya, feeling niya type mo na siya. Da Feelz teh, Da Feelz! Puhleeze!

Iba kasi ang tingin nila at ang pagproseso nila ng stimuli sa mundo, kaya kung anu-ano ang nababasa at naiisip at nararamdaman at napupuntahang conclusion sa mga bagay-bagay. Puwedeng ang inosenteng dantay ng kamay sa braso ay bigyan nila ng malisya at iba ang basa dito. Sasabihin nilang naguguwapuhan daw sa kanila ang babae kapag hinahawakan sila sa ganitong paraan. Kahit siguro tapikin mo, basta nadantay lang ang palad mo sa balat nila, iisipin na nilang may iba na itong ibig sabihin – at ang ibig sabihin ay type mo kasi sila, o may tinatago kang pagnanasa sa kanila, o gusto mo sila at nagpaparamdam ka para mag-damoves na siya sa iyo.

February Feelingera 4: Just because I like girls doesn’t mean I like you, gurl!

Feelingera numero cuatro: ‘Yung mga “straight” women na akala nila ay type mo sila dahil sa lesbiyana ka and you like girls. Like automatically. Gurl, we have this thing called taste, ya know. Etchoserang feelingera kah!

Hindi ko talaga mawari hanggang ngayon kung saan nanggagaling ang self-entitlement na ito ng ilang het gurls sa mundo. Meron diyang biglang tititigan ka ng masama kasi nga lesbiyana ka, na tipong lalayo sila bigla sa iyo na para bang hihipuan mo sila. Nakakatawa pero kung babaligtarin natin ang mundo nila, ganun din ba sila? Kapag may lalaking nakakita sa kanila, automatic ba nilang iniisip na hahawakan sila ng boylet para mangtsansing? Automatic ba din nilang iisiping crush sila ng boylet dahil lang sa girlalu sila? Aba, ano’ng akala nila sa ating mga woman-loving-woman at mga het boys, feelingera espesyal? Kaya ayan, silang mga ganitong uri ng gurl ang nababansagang feelingera – kasi akala nila, type sila ng iba, just because.

Have fun! As always, feedback is most welcome so feel free na maki-feeling ditey!🙂

POC back on FB: My January series on the Pope visit

•January 30, 2015 • Leave a Comment

For a while there — more than a year, at least — the online news/feature website I’ve been contributing to, The Philippine Online Chronicles (POC) has been edged out of social media giant Facebook. For some unknown reason, FB kept on blocking links to our website, saying that it is spam and other stupid things like that. Apparently, someone clicked the complaint bullet points FB provides when identifying links as spam. In order to unblock it, we had to repeatedly report to FB that this site is legit and all. More than a year of doing this yet there seemed to be no reply — until this month.

In this new media age where sharing posts is the new word of mouth, this cost us a lot. Readers who are not on Twitter could not easily share our links via FB. Readership is lost in this click-away society we have now. But all’s well now, so we’re good to share again in that space.

And here’s something to share: a synthesis of my January entries for POC’s Pinoy LGBT channel. Since the Pope visit is obviously the highlight of this country this month, of course we LGBTs had a lot to say about this event. Here’s mine.

I started with a series entitled “Si Santo Papa at ang santita lesbiyana,” playing on the “santa santita” terminology familiar to Filipinos. It somehow means “the holy unholy” or something like that, and some origins trace it back to a monicker for Mary Magdalene the so-called prostitute. Being a born Catholic who has renounced it already, I’ve meditated a lot on what this visit means to me now, in this age and with this maturity, and I came up with some points that make me trace thoughts back to childhood.

Here’s the rundown:

Si Santo Papa at ang santita lesbiyana (Part 1 of 4): Batang-bata ka pa, bine-brainwash ka na

Sa seryeng ito, susubukan kong ugatin kung bakit nga ba ang mga kauri ko ay minsan iniirapan ang simbahan at minsan naman ay umi-internal struggle muna bago pumasok sa simbahang kabatak ng Santo Papa. ‘Ika nga ni Maria Von Trapp, let’s start from the very beginning… sa aking childhood.

Si Santo Papa at ang santita lesbiyana (Part 2 of 4): Vow of chastity, poverty, obedience… and not questioning

Bawal kasing magkuwestiyon ng mga bagay-bagay, lalo na sa simbahan. Dito ko na unang nakikita ang mga ‘di tugma sa mga salita ng Diyos at sa mga tauhan niyang dapat ay sumasakatuparan nito. Sa mga patuloy ding dumadalo o sumasali sa mga ritwal ng simbahan, sinimulan kong tanungin kung may nakukuha ba sila dito, gayong minsan ay nakikita kong iba ang ginagawa nila sa simbahan.

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Si Santo Papa at ang santita lesbiyana (Part 3 of 4): Sa sinner vs. sin, sinetch ang win?

Magtataka ka pa ba kung karamihan din sa amin ay biglang maghahanap ng ibang simbahang masasambahan? Bilang lesbiyana, meron din kaming freedom to exercise religion chenes tulad ng mga hetero/straight. ‘Yun nga lang, kung ang mga babae ay nasesermunan ng mga isyung pambabae, dito naman ay sesermunan din kami ng mga isyung pumapatukoy sa kung paano kami may sure-fire ticket to hell na dahil sa pinili naming magmahal ng taliwas sa pagmamahal na alam nila.

Si Santo Papa at ang santita lesbiyana (Part 4 of 4): What is the way, the truth, and the life?

Maliban sa hindi nagiging importante ang mga kapakanan ng kababaihan at isinasantabi ang pagkatao ng mga lesbiyana, ano pa ba ang maaaring dahilan kung bakit maaaring talikuran ng isang babaeng nagmamahal ng kapwa babae ang Katolisismong kinagisnan niya at sa halip ay tatakbo sa ibang kauring relihiyon na minsan ay mas masahol pa sa ilang kaipokritahan ng mga masusugid na mapanghusgang Katoliko?

When the Pope left, of course the euphoria didn’t leave us immediately. Having one of our immediate family members participate in these festivities, we couldn’t help but wonder how the leader of this church could exclude people like us. So of course, I made an article about it:

Post-Pope visit pondering: How about my queer family?

Sana, paglaki ng mga bagets na nasa aming pag-aaruga, makagisnan nila ang panahong ang mga tinitingalang institusyon at tauhan nito ay magkakaroon na ng mas malawakang pananaw kung ano ba talaga ang mensahe ng Diyos – ang magmahal nang tunay at lubos – pananaw na ginagampanan din naman ng pamilya naming iba sa kanyang paningin, pamilyang hanggang ngayon ay nasa margins pa rin, labas sa basbas nila.

What a month, eh? And it’s just the start of the year for all of us. To  reminisce about the top stories of 2014 at the POC Pinoy LGBT channel, you can check out this rundown.

Anyway happy reading!

 
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